fanny's viewing today

well, my 2nd viewing in my life so far. it was not as emotion at all as grams except for moments when i'd associate the two. fanny was like a form of gram but southern baptist and i had a relationship with her as an adult vs. a kid. i chatted with some family and they all knew of us... she talked about us. we were standing in front of her while sharing stories and i was ok with it. i'd look over at her during conversation. i knew about every day details that they didn't. it made me feel like the short 2 years we had as neighbors were meaningful. (we've lived here for 2 years already?) so good times and a glass of wine for her tonight. she always wanted some boogy woogy when she left and no sad stuff. they won't sell her place or car just yet so i'll still see her caddy parked there and the lights on at night... a bit ghostly but maybe it will help with closure.